Production Vs. Consumption & Stimulation Experiment (Part 1/8: Pornography and Masturbation)

Abstract

As requested, my 170pt+ comment in a thread on TRP was expanded upon and made into a series.

Hypothesis: Consumption activities that require no production, creativity, or effort were not only sapping my energy, but were causing problems in other parts of my life. If I refrain from consumption until I get shit done and prioritize being in the moment and sleep over stimulation, good results will come, whatever they may be.

  • Topics:

    • 1) Pornography & Masturbation
    • 2) Video Games
    • 3) Torrenting
    • 4) Online Shopping/Home Decor
    • 5) Netflix and Free Streaming
    • 6) Social Media
    • 7) Cell Phone Use
    • 8) Electronic Stimulation and Sleep

General Format: Relevant History, Previous Issues, My Experiment/Results, Conclusion. At the end, there will be final conclusion of the entire experiment.

Note 1: Each topic will be posted in the order that they occurred in my life and will have its own page.

Note 2: How these topics and my experiment relates to privacy issues, conspiracy, and blue pill ideologies has been minimized or completely excluded intentionally. That is another post entirely and would only serve as a distraction.

Note 3: This abstract will be included in all topics. In the future, just skip to the subject.


1) Pornography & Masturbation

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Relevant History:

I discovered photo porn in 5th grade by searching “sexywomen.com” and “big boobies” on google images. My mother found it in the search history, gave me another ‘talk’, then grounded me. I even invited my friend over to see my new discovery…

Me: “Dude. ‘Bob’. You gotta come to my house. I found something awesome on the computer!”

Bob: “Sure, what is it?”

Me: “It’s a secret.”

(Shows him)

Bob: “you didn’t know you could do that? Turn it off we’ll get caught!”

Me: “Come on! Stay. We can still look at some more.”

Bob: “They are wonderful, but this isn’t my house. I’m leaving.”

Me: I’m gonna stay a little longer…

It wasn’t until 7th grade that I discovered video porn and jacked off for the first time via LimeWire (remember that?). My older friends back in elementary school told me about this ‘jacking off’ thing in 5th grade. I had no idea what they were talking about. I thought you just look at women and enjoy the boner in your pants or maybe rub against a girl with your clothes on. “You rub your penis and sperm cums out”. What the fuck?

Finally got curious and tried it out. “WOW! You can watch videos of this stuff? Okay, let’s try out this ‘jacking off’ thing. Okay, you just watch the video and rub your dick and something cool happens”.

There I am on a laptop with my pants at my knees and cock in hand. Eventually, I felt an unfamiliar but very pleasurable sensation overcome me, so I just kept wanking to see what would happen. Then it happened. My eyes rolled in the back of my head and my limbs stiffened. The pleasure felt like it was killing me. I was immediately addicted. At least once a day everyday since that moment, I watched porn and jerked off. It was a fucking routine: come home from school. Eat. Jerk off. Take a nap. Finally, last wank before I fall asleep.

How is this relevant other than for a laugh? Examine what I just said for a moment. From 13-18, for five straight years, I watched porn and jerked off everyday. As you can imagine, this has its effects. It was only after 100’s of sexy times later that I’ve realized my history of porn and masturbation habits were negatively affecting me and decided to confront the issues head on.

My Past Issues

Issue 1) Desensitization/Fantasy Preference

There were two simultaneous issues occurring. First off, I was physically numb from all the times I rubbed one out with a tight grip. Condom? Forget it, boner died. Raw dog? Hard as a rock and last forever, no problem. At first glance, that longevity may appear to be quite desirable, but it was actually a curse. Sure I could get her to climax multiple times, but what about me? I enjoy the act of fucking for the sake of fucking, but it was extremely difficult to get off and was bumming me out. It even made girls self-conscious wondering why they couldn’t “please me”. However, this was not their fault and there was nothing they could do about it. A vagina simply cannot replicate the pressure and motion of your hand that you’re accustomed to. My body was programmed to orgasm with precise pressure, speed, and muscle contraction from all those years of masturbating.

Issue 2: Imagination vs. Reality

I had a preference for porn and imagination over the real deal. Even when the girl had a great ass & tits and I was raw doggin’, I couldn’t get off from the act alone. Every time I had to withdraw from the experience back into my mind to fantasize about something I was already doing.

Combine this with Issue 1 and you get extreme difficulty climaxing. It took immense concentration on a fantasy, precise angle of entry, and specific muscle contractions to get off. Any distraction would kill it. There was a time I was having sex basically every day, yet I needed porn to finish myself off. Gentleman, that’s a problem.

Issue 3: Lethargy/Lazy Boners

Orgasm saps your energy and makes you sleepy. From my experience, masturbating does so more than sex. In addition, I have found that once a day drains the will and motivation to do anything after the fact. If I were to sleep upon climaxing during masturbation during the midday, I feel like shit when I wake up. Attempting to fight this urge to nap makes me sluggish.

Combine masturbation daily and taking naps upon climax and I got what I call ‘half-ass libido’. My mind still recognizes and targets attractive women, but little to no physical arousal follows. The process is almost exclusively a mental one. Instead of physical arousal, I feel lethargic. It’s like an automatic aerosol scent can that’s running low on liquid. The internal motor begins to cycle, but only a pathetic puff shoots out. If any physical arousal is present, a small flaccid boner develops and isn’t pleasurable. Overall, the feeling is gross.

Issue 4: Wasn’t turned on by frontal sex

There was a time that a front angle view of a woman’s lower body didn’t arouse me. This was because every time I spanked the monkey, I watched porn and every time I watched porn, it was a video of doggy style. Hours upon hours of sexual stimuli was exclusively of a specific action at a specific angle. I conditioned my mind to only accept this form of input.

Issue 5: Required more extreme stimuli

When watching porn in large quantities, you discover new categories and acquire other tastes. Eventually you get sick of that one scene from that specific video and begin to search elsewhere. While this is occurring, you develop a tolerance to the dopamine spikes your current material is inducing and need to be ever higher to get-off. Over time, your tastes evolve due to necessity. I found myself going to more and more questionable parts of the internet and looking for online places where people engaged in this activity (entertaining the thought to meet up with like-minded individuals). Not of the violent or illegal variety, but I could tell based on my trajectory that this path was dangerous, a ‘gateway porn’. Not a good hole to go down. I got out before it was too late.

Experiment and Results

Procedure 1: Porn

  • Real Amateur films only
  • No ‘extreme’ porn
  • No pornography whatsoever

My interests starting from 7th grade progressed as follows: lesbians, professional (fake), real amateur, then ‘extreme’, extreme + 1, extreme + 2… At the beginning of this experiment, I thought that if I just stick with the ‘real amateur’ films, I would be taking in a realistic stimulus that wouldn’t do any harm. It’s the real deal. No fake moans, no shitty acting, no fake tits and asses, no ridiculous sex positions and crazy lighting. Just filmed from a home camera. Surely this would be okay right? To test this, I decided to compare it to no porn at all.

Result 1: Real Amateur vs. No Porn

No porn was the best choice. It turns out I had an artificially high expectation of women fixed in my subconscious. With no porn, I’m aroused by less attractive women than before.

Result 2: Time

While actively monitoring the time spent on porn during my experiment, I noticed how much time I spent looking for the perfect video. I was very picky about the perfect scene. It could take up to 30 minutes to find it. When I decided to not stop using porn, masturbation sesh times decreased dramatically. They are more to the point.

Result 3: Extreme Stimuli

My newly acquired ‘extreme’ tastes are still with me and I feel no shame in allowing the thoughts to flow in my mind, but I no longer need them to climax nor do I entertain meeting up with like-minded people.

Result 4: Frontal Sex and Nudity

With cutting porn out of my routine, I became turned on by frontal sex and nudity.

Result 5: Revert Back to Porn

I decided to go back to porn to see how it affects my brain after having done my experiment for a couple weeks (and of course because I missed it a little). I no longer derive as much pleasure from it. I’m impatient with the time necessary to find the perfect scene. I find that real amateur photos that randomly popup in ads are more arousing than video. Porn is no longer worth it.

Result 6: Another pornographic relapse

After over a month of no porn whatsoever, I decided to dip into it because I couldn’t sleep. It was here I noticed a real change in my brain. No longer were the thumbnails of the videos instantly arousing me. I had to try to get into the videos, to feel what I once felt when I used to watch them regularly. Now I feel no need to see it.

Procedure 2: Masturbation

  • No fap
  • No death grip
  • No flexing
  • Eyes open
  • Less often

Result 1: No Death Grip

I am more sensitive. It’s easier to climax

Result 2: No flexing

Used to flex certain muscles and position my body in certain ways while jerking, something that is extremely difficult to replicate during sex. Now a relaxed position suffices.

Result 3: Eyes Open

Before, I jerked with my eyes closed and fantasized. Now I keep my eyes opened, look at my dick, and imagine a girl on it to keep the perspective in line with the action instead of from a view of 3rd party observation. It feels more real when my mind doesn’t drift away and make the act of sex an abstract concept.

Result 4: No fap

a) Went cold turkey and didn’t fap. I lasted about 4 days before my balls ached from their own weight suspended between my legs. It was so painful I had to lay down and rest my sac on my leg to give them a break from gravity. I gave in to the misery and released to pent up pressure. Semen went flying like rockets.

b) In just a few days, I noticed my hormones raging and my adrenaline pumping at the sight of a slightly fuckable female. My thoughts would then be consumed with sexual fantasy and my boner would press hard against my pants. It would happen in the store, at work, on my way home in traffic. I couldn’t focus. I couldn’t function.

c) My mind would get desperate for female attention in the form of IOI’s. I would swivel my head and stare at girls in my vicinity despite me actively attempting to prevent it.

d) I went cold turkey again to see how it would pan out, but this time my balls didn’t hurt.

Result 5: Less often

When spaced to every other day, the amount of energy drained is decreased. When spaced to every 3-4 days, my ‘battery’ becomes fully charged. It’s best right before bed and only after having done something productive that day. By doing it before bed, there’s no opportunity cost. You were gonna sleep anyways, right? Anything after results in a sore dick upon indulging until a new regular pattern is established.

  • Sidenote: But now that I think about it, the longest I lasted was a week, but it was because I had no time before bed (had to wake up super early). I knew if I wanked, that would be 30+ mins less sleep. I needed every second.

Any noFap after a week with no pussy to dump your load in is just needless misery. I can’t sleep in this condition without knowing I’ll suffer for it in the morning (mentioned early).

Result 6: New Mindset

Shortly after the pornographic relapse discussed above, I felt another urge to indulge, but this time it was different. The same ‘mental dominant arousal’ I discussed in Issue 3 (lethargy/lazy boners), but without the accompanying sluggish feeling. I could sense it pressing in the back of my mind, but not surfacing. To examine it, I withdrew into my mind and found the visceral feeling to be quite primitive. I don’t mean that in only the strict definition sense, but also the negative connotation that usually comes with it. In my meta-cognition, I sneered at it. I viewed it as a lesser being. It was like my sexual programming was attempting to enslave me.

This doesn’t seem to be just a coincidence or random. At this time, I was working on escaping my wage-slavery. It’s as if my mind now had a higher calling and this urge was restraining me and I personified it to allow resentment. It was like leaving the scene of a person you no longer wish to speak to, and the person tugs at your arm to regain your attention to reengage or convince you to come back. “Get off me. Don’t touch me.”

Conclusion

I used to think that pornography didn’t affect my life in any negative fashion. All you do is find a video, sploosh, and move on with your day, no problem. Upon reflection, I’ve found this to be demonstrably false. Anything you repeatedly expose your mind to WILL affect you. You won’t notice it until you experiment with it because the effects are subconscious.

Masturbation removes all traces of desiring women not through substitution, but by removing the foundation of all life’s pursuits. It saps my will, my drive, my energy necessary to pursue life. It results in an existential crisis if not done right before bed. Once the euphoria of the climax wears off, everything that gave me purpose is rendered meaningless.

Ask yourself, when was the last time you needed discipline to pursue sexual gratification? No matter what, the body manages to muster the will to pursue the proliferation of its genes. After this experiment, I came to a conclusion: sex is the primary motivator of all male action. The energy the body automatically preserves for the pursuit of reproduction is the foundation of all motivation. It is the push that makes us move. If you are not careful, nature’s push will shove you far in the wrong direction.

If only one could harness this sexual desire selectively and channel its energy towards productive outlets… If only one could tap into this reservoir of sexual energy and redirect it at will, the results would be awe-inspiring. I have done it once, and it was amazing.

I’m shocked at all the time in my life spent staring at a computer rubbing my dick. That time could have been spent on something productive.

If you find yourself questioning whether or not what you’re looking at is legal, it means you’ve gone too far. There are just way too many ‘normal’/healthy/legal ways to express your sexuality for it to be worth it. These newly acquired tastes weren’t something you would naturally stumble upon, they came about as a necessity to exceed your newly established dopamine tolerance.

Not jerking off is simply not feasible for me. Unless you slay pussy left and right all week, you’re gonna have your needs unmet much of the time. In addition, I can’t function while my hormones are raging and my adrenaline is pumping. I would recommend eradicating porn altogether and keeping masturbation to the least you can do while remaining functional. Don’t jerk off just because you’re bored.

Pornography and masturbation isn’t immoral and it doesn’t make you beta, it’s just not good for you. Have sex with an actual woman instead.

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3 thoughts on “Production Vs. Consumption & Stimulation Experiment (Part 1/8: Pornography and Masturbation)

  1. Here’s my deal: I agree with almost everything you’ve said in this post. You say to just have sex with women but we all know that having sex with just one woman can get boring. Some of us like novelty so what do we do when we quit porn, we have a girlfriend but the urge for other women is so strong that the only way to get the release without cheating is porn?

    1. “You say to just have sex with women but we all know that having sex with just one woman can get boring”

      Who said anything about fidelity? I’ll just copy and past a comment I made in the TRP thread of this post…

      “The only way to combat lower female sex drive and retain an abundance mentality is to eliminate her monopoly of your sex life by discreetly banging other chicks on the side. Never let a woman decide when you don’t get to have sex. She’s ‘not in the mood’? You should have a backup chick in your phone or call up an escort.

      All women will attempt to use their sexuality as weapon at some point, neutralize it. If she can’t control you with it and make you put up with bullshit, she will complain in the form of “are we okay?”, “you’ve changed….”, blah blah blah. Translation: “Why can’t I control you with my pussy?”

      Just remember to keep it on the DL and never apologize if caught.

      TRP thread: https://www.reddit.com/r/TheRedPill/comments/5gstxt/production_vs_consumption_and_stimulation/“>

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